my day??

yeaahhhhh...................

today is 19 of march.. and im turning... 19 years old for the past 5 years ago.. huhu
im getting old.. but still i got this feeling of young people had!! haha (what a verasan things to proud of)


huhu but still, on my special day, i got this broken heart because of love thinggy.. what a 'malang' things happen on me.. to be honest, im just so sad of what he had done to me.. doing things make me feels like im no one to him.. is it possible?? huh gosh.. i was hoping that i never met him for the past 5 years ago... i wish i could turn back the time.. and ask for the right path...
and now, should i regret of what im facing for??

sometimes it makes me feel down and surrender of the love-fights or should me specified more.. dugaan bercinta... macamlah aku nih dah engage sampai tahap dugaan yg aku terima sangat berat.. but i got to face it with my broken heart again... gosh..i wish i could be more tougher than yesterday...

for today.. i receive mane wishes form families and friends.. and for him.. its just like a simple wish that even a boy of 8 years old could say... omg!! how terrible i felt ... on my own day.. and my special occasion.. he treated me badly lately ..

stil, i try to be happy.. and for now.. im just sitting down and started my blog back.. so i can have my own place to let me feelings down.. huhuuu what a day... ive been stoping written my blog since i got this thought of not to tell everyone how i felt.. im not a person who holds a diary in her palms, written it every night and make sure to put it somewhere safe.. nope. im not ..
but i guess, but starting back my blog, will help me to have the courage to face the life...

in my own day, im wishing my owns birthday song.. as to chher up my heart... :)

happi birthday to me...
happi birthday to me...
happi birthday to emma...
happi birthday to me....