let's together againts abortion!

hai everyone, things i want to share wit you all... let's pretend we are the babies inside there, ok?

Hi, Mommy.

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.



You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.



Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.



Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.



I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.



Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?



You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?



It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?



I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.



...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!



Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!



Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.



Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!





I love you, Mommy.



Every abortion is just…



One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.



If you’re against abortion, reblog.

AMEN!!!

heavenly need a vacation

last night, housemate aku bername miss Nurul membawa pulang phamplets2 bercuti2 malaysia.. aku pun tertarik jek melihatnye.. taku selngor setiap satu muke surat sampai aku laa aku bleh hafal kot road maps around kl.. kahkahkah tapi hanye 1 tempat jek takde phampletnye.. where the hell sume tempat bercuti2 die pulau??????

yaaaiks!! betul betul betull.. im desperately need a man!! oooooppps typing error!!! what i meant is.. I NEED A HOLIDAY!! (*&$%*&()!!!! bercuti cuti malaysia gitu!!! tapi kemane ye?? huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idea idea .. andai lah kalo idea boleh dibeli kedai runcit.. kahkahkah.. ok2.. sangat merapu dah.. hurm aku perlu kan kedamaian.. which lead me to island!! yeaah!! tapi ade tak sape2 bleh suggest which island that can attract me more with less of budget?? ;)

so need peeps opinion and im thinking of it to be real this time! hahhaa mandi manda.. jadi duyung salai atas pasir2 puteh gitu.. kahkahkah tapi dalam minda nih ade 2 choise which attract me A LOT!!! Hentian island atau pun Tiomen island?? toloooong tolooong aku.. sesape lah yg pernah pegi ke sane.. atau ade suggestion yg menarik.. aku sangat butuh kan pertolongan kalian ya.. gue kepingin bercuti.. kahkahkahkah

ada aku pedulik?

huhuuuu mmg aku dah tak pedulik dengan doktor dah.. hahah sebab aku dah biasa tanganku ini dicucuk jarum oleh doktor2 yang dari KJMC ke, Sri Kota ke, Hospital Banting ke, DEMC ke.. aku dah tak pedulik.. hahaha asalkan aku nak sehat cepat!!!! uwaaaa dah masuk 3 minggu nih still aku tak fully recover.. tapi kalo org tengok aku, mmg akan kate aku tak sakit.. sebab aku ceria.. yesss laughter is the best medicine!! huhuu tapi dalaman aku hanye beberapa org tertentu je yg tau keadaan aku..

aku nak start cite cmane aku sakit 3 mgu lepas aku rase nanti ade yg browse kebawah dengan pantasnye.. tapi aku skip2 jelah beberapa bende yg tak penting..
last 3 weeks, aku demam .. balik dr SMC, check up on my lump.. aku demam terus.. tatau nape.. tak silap aku.. aku ade menntion dalam entry yg lepas2.. (sile bace kalo rajen) so, bile dah demam nih, parents bawa g Hospital Banting ( memandangkan aku cuti seminggu kan, uitm kuarantin) so.. dapat ubat... doktor kuarantin aku.. suh duk umah pakai mask bla bla blaaaaa tapi die kate kalo demam tak bek datang lagi..
on tuesday, aku rase badan aku dah sehat.. dengan yakinnye aku cakap kat abah aku, takyah lah g hospital.. sok pagi baliklah Shah Alam (dengan harapan nak buat tesis & id) tapi malam tuh aku menggigil semacam.. demam yg teramat panas.. aku bangun makan paracetomol 2biji.. then mule berpeluh.. tibe2 jadi sejuk.. ish aku tak paham... and its continue sampai 3 malam berturut.. in dat time gak, tangan aku dah 2 kali dicucuk kat hospital.. at first kene suspect denggi, tapi semalaman jek aku dtahan.. so die halau aku balik.. bile dah balik.. demem still on off.. kene gak berulang alik jumpe doktor.. seminggu ttuh aku rase 4 x aku kene amek blood test.. sumpah tangan aku dah imune dengan jarum!! huhuuu

ari ahad tuh, pergi tempat kecemasan and trauma.. dari pukul 9 pagi aku datang daftar sampai kul 5 baru aku settle balik.. (8 hours of wasting time .. i guess its not worth it to wait cuz still aku demam lagik) aku dapat xray and i was confirm dat my pneumonia is REcurrent.. dem it.. patutlah aku demam pada waktu malam.. huhuu so got mc's for another 3 days..

tuesday on the next week, abah anta aku balik Shah Alam, aku tak dulik.. aku nak balik jugak pkirkan aku tak buat kerja ape.. huhuu aku takut dengan lects aku.. ye mmg aku takut! aku takut failed! dats why.. huhuuhuuu walaupun aku tanak jadi sakit.. tapi Allah dah bagi dugaan camni aku kene terima.. tapi tak sangke malam tuh jadi satu lagih hal besar.. nasib baekla.. ade kak ila (my best best frend yang aku bleh harapkan sekarang) .. secara tak lagsung, aku call die ajak jumpa.. rindu nak borak dengan dia.. alang2 aku ajak tido rumah.. bleh borak panjang kan.. tapi sebelum aku balik ke SA aku dah muntah 4x kat umah.. dont ask my why and dont ever think wrong of me okeh!!

malam tuh, aku makan 1 bende pun sume kuar balik.. tapi muke aku mmg dah diberi jenis tak nampak pucat @ sakit.. org ingat aku men2 muntah .. hahah last2 kak ila nih tgk badan aku semacam ja.. tido atas lantai sebab aku tak sedap badan nak tido atas katil.. tiap kali bende masuk mulut aku kuar kan balik.. including air suam! bayangkan la.. ape jadi dengan aku bile aku tak makan seharian??? dahlah badan cekeding ( bak kate abah aku) nih takde makanan yg melekat kat perut aku plak.. aku sangat lapa.. aku ajak k.ila trun ke kedai beli roti.. kunun2 buat alas perut lah kan makan slow2.. tak sempat naik rumah.. aku muntah lagih tepi jalan tuh.. ya allah.. hanye tuhan je tahu keadaan aku.. mase tuh ke 9 kali aku muntah.. perut aku dah pedih.. aku nampak muke kak ila yg simpati kat aku .. tapi aku tak suke org pandang aku camtuh.. aku try jalan balik ke umah.. minum air kotak yg dah dibeli.. kuar balik!! kali nih kuar air mate skali sebab aku dah tak tahan.. balik umah dengan jalan cpat.. aku trus terbaring kat umah.. memeikirkan ape nak jadi dengan badan aku nih.. (aku tanak pergi dulu.. aku banyak buat dosa, aku harap aku sempat taubat.. tuh yg berdetik dalam pale aku)

aku call abg aku at 12.04 am (midnite okeh) die pun mule risau.. tapi suare aku masih bleh bergelak.. siap kate.. takpe angah.. jangan risau.. slagi tak sampai 20x muntah.. jangan datang bawa emma g hospital.. tapi silap jangkaan aku.. tepat jam 2.30 am.. aku muntah tuk kali ke 14.. kali ni k.ila bersuara banyak kali tanye aku samade aku okey atau tak.. aku telefon abg aku berkali2.. tapi tade yg jawab.. terpaksala tepon mama .. dengan harapan.. janganlah angkat aku tanak nyusahkan dorang datang jauh dari banting) kali ke2 aku tepon.. abah dengan suara tidonye jawab..

aku: hello.. abah.. dah tidor ke?
abah: aah.. baru je tido.. nape ni?
aku: abah... urrmm urrmm.. emma nih muntah2
abah: banyak ke?
aku: urrm ade lah 14x dah
abah: (suara yg terkejut) haa?? 14x dah?? knape tak cakap??
aku: hari nih je muntah 14x. tatau nape.. emma lapar bah..
abah: ya allah.. nape tak bagitau?? dah tepon angah?
aku: dah.. tapi dorang tido mati.. kak nani pun tak angkat .. emma tak tahan bah.. bleh emma g spital??
abah: haa pegilah .. nak pegi spital mane? sape anta?
aku: kawan emma nak bawa.. abah jangan risau ye
abah: ok.. ape2 bagitau.. abah datang nih

dalam hati aku, tak terniat aku nak nyusahkan dorang.. tapi aku kene bagitau dorang..
maaflah mama abah.. emma ganggu waktu tido .. dalam sekelip mata je.. abah sampai ke SMC..


bersambung...............

CROCS sane sini

tu dia.. nih kasut anak buah aku .. cik Aleeya

it supposed to be purple.. tapi malam, so kinda gelap. its mine! the num 4th crocs pairs

ini dia

so dis is it..haha blur gile nak tulih tajuk entry kali ni..heheheh anyway, aku tanak merapu banyak sebab aku very-the-busykan..hehehe (dem.. asal keyboard nih cam aram lak....)

sile tataplah gamba yang berlaku dalam mgu lepas..menandakan aku sangat very-the busy keh..hehehehetade mase i nak melayan blogging gitu..ehehehe

hehee makan time

fav dish

time to karoke~

di Bangi Kopitiam

hectic week for us~

yeaay~ seminggu pengajian berakhir.. tinggal lagih 15 weeks of kuliah.. hahaha counting days to finish my study.. cant wait :P

btw, first day of class when smoothly with semester of course briefing... holding a piece of paper written of the schedule one whole semester makes me a bit of 'scary' because ii am now in last semester which mean FINAL!!! dem~ wuwuuuuu pejam celik pejam celik.. sungguh pantas masa berlalu yeee.. hahhaha and makin meningkat lah umur aku .. adeh~~ tulun2.. aku tanak jadi tue :P

along dis re-freshing brain week, me and my frens going for theraphy for our mind, soul and bla bla bla.. ape lagih.. shopping laa.. biaselah girls.. when sits together, what can be more?? watching movie, eating, gossips, chatting, 'kutuk'ing, 'ngumpat'ing and shopping!! hahahahha so wonderful.. and really hectic week for us.. hehhehe anyway, i got some pictures taken during our 'lepak'ing.. hahaha sometimes its so wonderful when we can just hang out with same sex talking and jalan2.. asik2 kuar dengan bf jek.. nyampah la kan?? hahhaah bukan nak cheating or flirting kan kan?? hahahha

tapi dalam seminggu nih juge, sempat lah aku melangsakan hutang pose 2 hari out 9 days .. so 7 days left but i guess in reaching for the moon by next week *wink *wink.. hahaha meaning i'll be i my 'twin' mood~ hahahahha

watching transformers 2

our next movie MAYBE??

1st day of open-fast for ganti pose

2nd day of open-fast ganti pose

my dish..yummy

hehee.. barang2 yang sempat dirembat

is it going to be end?

wwawaaaaaaaaaaa isnin nak dah setart kelas balik.. im so damn lazy to participate dis coming new sem.. tolooonggg toolooonggg.. tolooooong lah bagi kate2 yang bleh buat aku nak balik blajar tuk final sem nih.. huhuuuuuu

and bile dah setart balik kelas=no more blogging!! uwaaaa no more entry to be written, no more online shopping(haha tuh tak lupe!0, no more gossips! dem~ why why WHY?!!!?

arap evertyhing when smoothly lah sem nih.. tapi cekalkan lah hati aku nak tempuh muka2 lecture yang 'penyabar' itu .. hahahahahha

it was horrible to dream of ....

korang pernah tak bermimpikan EX-bf korang di malam hari?? tika korang tgh syo0k tido then suddenly muncul muka EX-bf yang tak dihingini?? wohh bagi aku.. horror laaa.. cuz im the person really hates that guys! haaaa!! pang!!! aku mencih! huhuu tapi itulah yang terjadi.. it was happened last 2 nites, day to Father's Day.. i feel like s**t.. hate it when i saw his face.. but that time, i cant do anything, its like i was being a coward.. i cried in my dream wanting someone too help me but there's no one could done it for me.. :(

tapi aku harap, semua tuh hanye mimpilah, like orang tua2 kata.. mimpi tuh hanyalah mainan syaitan kan? amin lah kalo betul.. but what if the dream happend when it was before dawn?? i was wake up when i couldnt breath easily in my dream (because i was crrying .. like i said)

nyway, nih jelah entry yang aku dapat berikan.. sebab lepas kejadian tu, aku rase macam loosing my brain-storm in typing the entry.. demmit~ oh ya.. tommorrow, i'll be going for a date (i guess) and i hopes i helps me in giving theraphy after seeing my mucuk.. hahaha kami akan nuntun Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen yeah!!! tapi yang sebenarnye, esok nak hantar perfume.. hahahaha ade customer order kan..sampai 5 botol ordernye haa.. so alang2 jalan je skali.. bile lagih nak dapat ketenangan jiwa kan kan??

Licence to Wed

just now, i've watched a movie on HBO entitled Licensed to Wed.. cewl one.. i dunt even know why i've said it.. maybe because i love the way mandy moore swings her butt (oppss no lah kidding.. actually, im adore to mandy moore acting and singing)... the show is based on a couple who falls in love accidentaly at the first then making decision in marriage together... whoooaaa nape skg banyak cite pasal kawen nih.. adehh.. tiiidaaakkk aku kawen lame lagih .. huhuuu tapi rase teringin pun ade.. takut pun ade.. kahkahkahh its just a feeling je kut.. ekekekeke

the movie happened when Ben Murphy (John Krasinski) and Sadie Jones (Mandy Moore) encounter a roadblock to their trip down the aisle when her unusual pastor.. bla bla blaaa... tapi i like the climatic of the movie.. (let say that im into romance movie lah.. dats why i love it :P). secara ringkasnya.. cerita ini mengisahkan Lesen untuk Berkahwin.. in our community, we said is as Kursus Kahwin (ada paham???)

tapi diikutkan, dalam agama kita sendiri pun perlukan kursus perkahwinan before kawen secara sah kan? so.. what's wrong if white peeps doing the same thing.. avoid having sex before marraige, bersekedudkan satu rumah.. hahaha macam lah dorang tuh orang Islam nak ikut sume syarat tuh.. tapi sebab tuh lah dikatakan ajaran mereka berbeza dengan ajaran kita.. more often we heard on the news, tv and mags.. peeps makin ramai divorce.. bukan setakat di luar negara ja, but among us pun ada kan? that is why we need to know each other before we marry the person we didnt recognized his/her attitude, hobby etc and at last ending on a piece of paper written of Divorce Case.. damn hate it..

ish apa aku merepek nih.. huhuuu aku busan.. tapi aku cume nak conclude kan je dengan perahwinan yg semakin ringan orang amik peduli.. nak kawen sume cantek dimata.. bila dah kawen, aduhhhaaai takut je.. im not stated to anyone but im syaing also to myself.. what if its happen to me?? would i be happier with me becoming husband? my new family?

cume hakikatnye.. after the climatics of the movie.. it ends really well when Ben Murphy realised his problem he made to his fiance and trying to win her back.. as for Saddie Jones, she should never compared her man with the others and trying to rely on his partner all the time that is why Man are meant for Women, Women are meant for Men... just dont be hypocrit before the wedding or else it become worse to each other.. there's nothing wrong of being hypocrit but all i can say that its worth if we just put on 10% of our hypocrit into our relationship.. :)





p/s: besides of License to Wed movie, i love A Walk to Remember movie also.. just love the girl so much

am i INSOMNIA's patient?

ughhh everday, everynight i'll be sleeping late.. selagi tak sah pukul 2 pagi.. selagi tuh jangan harap aku masuk bilik tido0o0... ZzzZZZzz

anyway, i do some research on web to find the symptoms of patient facing this Insomnia in daily life.. i was wondering if im one of the person who 'join' the club.. hahaha
here are the symptoms that guide me in finding me 'problem';

Each person experiences insomnia differently. People with insomnia may:
1. Have trouble falling asleep. This can mean lying in bed for up to an hour or more, tossing and turning, waiting to fall asleep. --->TEt! if its me, after tiring browsing on internet for hour and hour, i'll be 'away' in lalaland on my bed.. hahah dis is so not me.
2. Wake up and have trouble falling back to sleep. --->TEt! wrong again.. i'll be 'die' selagi tak matahari atas pala
3. Wake up too early in the morning. ---> refer to the answer above.
4. Feel tired when they wake up, like they didn't get enough sleep. ---> maybe, its me.. huhuu tapi orang kate.. tak elok pun bangun matahari dah pacak atas pala kan.. rejeki tak masuk.. heheee
5. Feel grouchy, sleepy, or anxious, and be unable to get things done during the daytime. ---> hurmm me again! :(


after counting these symptoms, i got only 2 rites.. so.. im NOT a Insomnia's patient okeh! im just cant sleep early.. uwaaaaaaaa elp me.. elp me!! im so wanting to be like someone else.. heheee

a gift to Abah

on dis coming Father's Day, i was thinking on buying him a new shoe.. crocs shoe.. easy for him to walk in comfortable way.. its a poor thing seeing my dad walking dengan lututnye yang sakit.. sometimes i dont bare to see him walking or drivng for a long time.. he will show us the 'pain-face' even though he never show it..

well.. hope i help him in dis kinda way.. i'll buy him a simple comfort sandal for him :) that will do it.. and hope he'll be smiling at me seeing these gift.

ithaca-mens

and as for me plak.. i was thinking to buy another pair for myself.. wether to own alice or malindi type crocs.. hahaha having a caleste crocs for myself really healps me a lot in reducing the pain climbing 152 stairs to get to my studio in my faculty.. damn high! hahah thanks to crocs, now i have no intention to get agry all day climbing those stairs..

alice

malindi pink

p/s: mama juge akan dapat nanti :) i will buy it for u both

sicknes all d way

huuhuuu dah almost 1 week aku batuk yg agak teruk plus dgn flu yg menyebabkan aku sukar nak bernafas... ooppss i dunt need breath rite yg tuk berdengkur tuh keh.. its just dis flu stuck through my kerongkong because of the 'kahak' .. euww... tapi nihlah yg aku face seminggu.. sakitlaaa dada aku sakit.. cant breath normally.. cant live normally.. cant flirt normally.. eehh silap2.... hahahah bleh lak menggatai time sakit kan.. huuuu poor me..

aku rase cam nak die die dieeeeee.. huwaaa tapi aku byk dosa agi nih... how? what? whyyyy?? huhuuu damn myself laa.. hahaha
oh yaa.. i was thinking doing body facial laa. yeay! sesi memanjakan diri!! heheheh tapi bile eh? maybe just note down on to do list.. heheheheheee cant wait for that moment loh.. hehhe

breast cancer

woooohooo sangat seram kan kalo ade perempuan yang disahkan mendapati breact cancer .. OMG!! aku seniri pun tak dapat bayang bile aku dikatakan lah positif.. tiiiiidddddddddaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakk... hahah tapi chill ou (lenggok Laura dalam cite Upik Abu & Laura).. haha insyaAllah.. aku tade penyakit tuh.. sebab aku sebenarnye one of Malaysian cictizens yg mendapat ade lump di breast.. wohh!! sangat terkejut k bile first time aku chek seniri di hadapan cermin.. ahahah (girls.. pi lah check seniri selalu yea.. lagih2 time mandi ke.. bkan susah pun.. ahhaah)

ok, i've read this one article bout Breast Cancer, which entitled of Caused of Breast Cancer.. wanna know?? hurmm k ere we goooo;
1. girls age 20 and above is at risk of getting breast cancer.. (okeh.. kakak2 and macik2 sume.. rajin2 kan mengecheck breast anda ye.. jangan suh laki anda plak yang mengecheck.. kan jadi len lak.. hahahaha)
2. family backgrounf (alhamdulillah .. family background aku tade this type of cancer .. wheeew~)
3. early onset of menstruation (before age 12) or late menopause (after age 50).. hahah mama!! anda selamat yea! kahkahkahhh
4. childless of giving birth to FISRT CHILD after age 30.. (woh! aku kene buat anak cepat neh.. ahhah marry me anyone.... hahahaha)
5. diet hogh in ANIMAL FATS..thank god.. aku tade diet2 nih.. badan i mmg dah slim shaddy..


ok.. ape yg aku nak cite, tadi aku g spital duing next check up.. pegi gomen hospital jek.. nak jimat duet.. mama suh pegi private aku tamo.. haha yelah cukuplah aku perabeh rm4ribu mase aku admit kat KJMC ari tuh sebab pnemonia.. so.. mama, abah.. baguskan anak bongsu mu ini.. ahhahaa jimat2 lah duet buat nak kawen nanti.. hahaha
so aku punye appointment supposed be at 8.30 am! DAMN.. bangun pagi dowh.. skali tunggu punya tunggu... guess what time does the doctor came? at almost 10.00am okeyh.. sempat agi buang air 2x!! hahah tade kaitan kan nak citer.. huhuuu arinih punye sesi cehck up.. die nak amek sample lump tuh.. huhuuuu aku takut.. bkan kate aku takut jarum.. i was imuned with needels keh? tak caye? haaaa cueb lah suh aku amik darah.. aku cewl~ hahahah dah biaselah.. sejak kene admit seminggu tuh.. tapi yang nih len.. bkan nak cucuk kat tangan atau lengan atau buntot.. tapi di breast!!! tiiiidddddddaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkk!!! hahahaha.. percayaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaa (bak kate ct nurhaliza) bayangkan weh.. kene cucuk kat tmpat yang tak pernah terpkir skali.. huahauhauhauhauu horrrorrr.. sempat aku melawak dgn doktor... Doktor, ade org pengsan tak lpas cucuk kat sini.. hahaha.. doktor tuh pun menjawab.. haha sepanjang 3thn kami buat tade lagihlaa.. tapi kalo ade pengsan, ur d first person in our history.. haha aku pun jawab agi.. takleh ke pengsan kan saya?? kaahkahkah punye lah aku takutt..

pastu.. tu dia... jarumnya... aku tak mampu nak pandang ape.. pandang dinding puteh pun cantek wok!! hahah oh dinding .. ko lah penyeri umah tangga ku nanti.. (aik.. tibe2 jek kan???)
pastu.. tgk aku cewl.. doktor tuh leh lak goyang2kan jaurm dalam tuh.. pegh!!@!!#$#$$!@#! sentap maaaakkk!!! mengenggam tgn macam nak lpas penumbuk jek kat muke doktor tuh! damn u doktor!! kaki aku dah terkuis2 naik haaaa.. pepehama lah.. aiiyooorrkkkk..

then it last.. alahmdulilah wit nyut2 in my breast.. ahahhaha aku kuar je muke ku nampak menahan sakit.. hahah tak sangke ade patient lain akan menerima naseb seperti aku juge.. (kehkehkeh gud luck ye)... depa sume pandang aku sambil wat isyarat muke.. yang membawa maksud.. SAKIT TAK??? hahahah aku pun.. ohh yeaaaah!!! mmg sakit gila2!!! hahahaha.. psycho kan aku (ekekeke...) itu saje ari nih punye cite.. yeay!1 k nak makan eskrem!! lalalalalal

self-bitter

well, there's nutin much happens today, but having much playing with my new make up really makes me satisfied for being a girl in dis world :p

here are some touch of my new sensuality of creativity of my handmade on face art.. hahha ape punye ayat daaa ..

hari ku yang kelam

hoh.. im running out of idea to write on the title.. sorry guys, tapi acctually there's nutin kelam pun in mylife.. heheh its just perfect as it guins well now.. huhuuu


nway, im grateful dat ARIL got num 2 in AF! YEAY!!!! glory aril!! heheh tak sia2 aku bazirkan duet rm 50 tuk ko jek.. kahkahkah.. mati lah kalo bf ku finds out.. huhuuu bf?? wujud ke perkataan bf tuh?? senang kate.. lets say hat i preffered if we just 'best friends' relationship :P

aku tatau nape aku agak obses la af7 kali nih.. mgkin sebab aril ade kut.. what makes him special?? hahaaa lawak lah.. tapi die lah entertainer yg aku nam;pak dapat tarik minat aku tuntun af everyweek.. but now.. akademi pun dah abeh. so, no more news bout him nmore.. hahaa takpelah.. nway, aril@ajam.. congrats on ur winning ..

oh ya.. skg aku agak menyibukkan diri prepare for my bro punye engagement day which be held at the end of dis month.. huwww i lost one of my siblings more dis time.. hahah ayat nak melampau kan? yelah when 'lelaki' ape lagih kalo abang kawen.. ofkos kite nih dah mcm org luar je kan?? huhuuu i really feel upset when me angah got married on year 2006.. maybe sebab aku terlalu rapat dgn die.. terasa la kehilangan abang.. tapi nak wat cmane.. they have to do what they supposed to do rite? im hoping that they never forget they responsiblities to my parents and family, dats all im whishing for.. not more that that..

oh ya.. saying on preparation, dis june will be a quite buzy month for me.. manyak wedding to be attend and my cousin wedding is also around d corner. whoaa got to be nice all day.. whewww..

akhirnyaaa.. perjuanganku

hahaaaa based on th etitle tuh munyik cam satu bebanan kan?? agaklaa. heheh akhirnye perjuangan aku sebagai pelajar 07 tamat juge.. cume keputusan jelah yg tak dipastikan lagih.. aku arap lulus. walaupun tak cemerlang.. haahaha aslakan lepas laa tuh je target aku kalo berada di kampus Shah Alam nih.. why? sebab aku dr Perak.. hahah kroni perak tau lah ape sebab aku ckp camnih..

btw, its been so many things happened few weeks ago.. aku pegi nuntun wayang BOHSIA. tapi mulanye kawna aku ade gak ckp dat movie its humiliate women's hak & what so ever.. hahaha yg penting niat aku tgk cite tuh nakjadikan pedoman jgn jadi Bohsia jek.. not more than that.. tapi aku suke jalan cite die.. like real things around us.. n belive me if 1 said dat i pun penah di cop minah rempit wok!! hahah gile ganas kan.. skg pun ade cop exos moto kat betis kiri ha.. ( tp tuh bkan sebab aku merempit, tapi aku tersilap pilih jalan .. gatai nak lalu kaw moto pakai suar 3quarter.. tak pasai kaki aku ade cop) lalala mcm2.. tapi baguslah kurang aku pakai suar pendek dah.. kahlkahkahh..

then i got fight with my kekasih but not sure of kekasih yet or what.. hahah pressure tul kalo gado.. yg peliknye.. die suke tinggi2 sore kat aku skg.. kalo ye pressure keje pun jgnlah lpaskn kat aku.. sepak terajang muke baru tau ( macm berani jek??) hahhahah
yesterday ade presentation final review.. ok lah evertyhing when smoothly.. cume aku pun pelik nape aku dpan lects tuh aku byk plak gelak2.. sampai kene tegor ng depa.. ceh! aku takotlah tapi aku punye cara nak ilangkan takut mmg kene gelak2. sorry sir! cant control of myself.. huhuhuh. abhe review aku dah janji ng kawan aku nak tulun die buat model.. yelah die nak final kan minggu depan.. tak salah lah tulun2 die.. hehhe mane tau nanti die plak tulun aku.. weeeeee..

nway, tuh jelah aku dapat update dlm entry kali nih.. i'll make sure aku akan update serajin dulu.. :D

im stil standing in dis world~

halooooo lame nye agak menghilangkan diri.. bizi bizi dan terus membizi bile dahnak dekat final neh.. tapi cuti nanti .. nantikan kemunculan ku di kaca tv plasma anda yaaa.. hahahahha jeng jeng jeng..

to mention one by one.. au start dar hari ahad lpas, date on 22 march.. ade festival hot air balloon di Putrajaya.. yeaaayy sangat terujua laah (bg anak buah ku tapi tidak pada aku *wink).. dah lah panas.. terik plak tuh.. aku pun tatau ape lah yg besh sangat.. hahah tapi kenangkan anak buah aku teruja n terkinja-kinja nak tgk belun panas katenye.. aku pun memfollow jelah kehendak die bersama dengan deua ibu bapa ku.. jeng jeng jeeeeengg..

adelah gambo2 yg sempat ku rakam gune tpon murah ku ini..

cik aleeya dgn payungnye yg berwarna warni

macam2 upe ade kan kan

ari isnin pule.. aku demam.. mc! yeaay... hahahah
dan aku kembali ke skol pada ari selase sebab ade test Francaise................

Beda antara SUKA dan CINTA

Dihadapan orang yang kau cintai, jantungmu tiba-tiba berdebar lebih cepat
Dihadapan orang yang kau sukai Apabila engkau melihat kepada mata orang yang kau cintai, matamu berkaca kaca
Apabila engkau melihat kepada mata orang yang kau sukai, engkau hanya tersenyum saja Dihadapan orang yang kau cintai, kata kata yang keluar berasal dari perasaan yang terdalam Dihadapan orang yang kau sukai, kata kata hanya keluar dari pikiran saja Jika orang yang kau cintai menangis, engkaupun akan ikut menangis disisinya Jika orang yang kau sukai menangis, engkau hanya menghibur saja Perasaan Cinta itu dimulai dari mata, sedangkan rasa suka dimulai dari telinga Jadi jika kau mau berhenti menyukai seseorang, cukup dengan menutup telinga Tapi apabila kau mencoba menutup matamu dari orang yang kau cintai, Cinta itu berubah menjadi tetesan air mata dan terus tinggal dihatimu dalam jarak waktu yang cukup lama
Tetapi selain rasa suka dan rasa cinta... ada perasaan yang lebih mendalam.
Yaitu rasa sayang…. rasa yang tidak hilang secepat rasa cinta. Rasa yang tidak mudah berubah. Perasaan yang dapat membuatmu berkorban untuk orang yang kamu sayangi. Mau menderita demi kebahagiaan orang yang kamu sayangi.

Love story of my life :)

wohooo aku tak bleh dgr lagu nih kalo berkumandang di cerung radio keta aku ke keta org sebelah ke.. mesti aku pun ikut same mengalunkan laguh ini. hehehe sangat besh untuk telinga ku menghayatinye.. walaupun aku sudah tidak dalam kategori bercinta .. still, i know there's a right prince coming for me holding my hand tightly .. will never ever let me go.. huhuuu uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aku sediy sediy sediiiiy.. tapi takpelah. meh aku nak kongsi lagu ngan kome sume .. ehehhee lyrcis jelah.. tapi hayati jek tau!!!

We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes

And the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights

See the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said stay away from JulietBut you were everything to me

I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh ohI got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so aloneI keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you